Groggy Sunday

My mind is as blank as this screen is right now. I want to write something prophetic, meaningful, with insight and intelligence, but my brain doesn’t seem to be working yet.

I have slept for too long today, until 9 AM which is unheard of for me. It has left me feeling more groggy than normal. I wonder what that is? Dehydration, or just my body telling me that I am always more tired than I think and am running on less sleep than I need?

I ate my breakfast whilst watching the weekly politics show then read some articles from The Guardian newspaper on my phone. It provided a mixture of outrage from the government and feelings of worthlessness from reading about more successful and happy people. I am left with an acknowledgement of my life choices; that it might be too late to make changes and a tinge of inspiration that people can live other lives.

I exchanged a few sarcastic messages via WhatsApp with my friend, who is also in a similar, unfulfilled position. We both struggle with what we should do, be or strive for; what we shouldn’t have done or aren’t doing seems more important.

I am grateful for knowing him, a kindred spirit who is on a similar path to me. We both have (or had) promise in life, but feel blocked somehow, unable to take action for reasons we can make up or reel off at the drop of a hat.

Perhaps I should have stayed in bed for longer. I wonder how you overcome that groggy feeling? More or less sleep?