Hardest days
jasonleow • 28 Apr 2023 •
The hardest days aren’t days when there’s fires to fight, bugs to squash, customer crises to solve.
Those are—in fact—the easy days.
Because you know what to do. Immediately. The direction is clear. The task is obvious. The need is expressed.
The hardest days are the days when you’re slumping in your chair, running on fumes, low on energy and motivation, unsure why you’re feeling so ‘off’, and the day passes in a hazy daze. You’re clicking around online looking for something to bite into, but nothing bites. And you just wish for the day to pass and night to come because you hope tomorrow you’ll find your normal self again.
Except that it doesn’t.
The next day comes and it’s the same old same old.
For the nth day. You’ve lost count already by now.
And day by day the self-doubt creeps in. What if this doesn’t go away? What if I need to get some serious work done? When will I see the daylight of optimism and adventure again?
Self-doubt gives way to anxiety. Anxiety unfolds into fear. Fear grows into panic.
These are the hardest days.
Comments
If you can’t think of something to work on, work on yourself.
@keni Hang in there too Keni!
@therealbrandonwilson I wish it was that easy a solution. In all likelihood, I suspect the answer for me is probably the opposite - surrender, and stop trying to work on myself or on anything at all.
Agreed. The never ending loop created by fear. I seem to be in one this year. I am trying to find something - a project or an event that will give me the escape velocity I need to get out of the funk.
Hang in there Jason.