Laying bricks 🧱

I found the perfect metaphor for my Github chart consistency:

I’m laying bricks.

Laying little green bricks every day. Brick by brick.

Right now, it feels like I only just started laying bricks on this massive house I’m trying to build for a future life. And when it’s at the beginning, it’s a f**king mess. You don’t even see the shape of a house, or anything resembling one. It’s just a massive, messy construction pit full of dirt, wood, concrete and bricks all mangled together, and you have no idea how it all fits. The sight of it doesn’t even look appealing, lest inspire. You step into it and squish squash around in mud and grime every day now, and it ain’t exactly a pleasant experience.

There’s nothing here, not much fun, not much to see honestly.

Building your own ‘house’ (aka indie hacking) sounds romantic, until you arrive on scene, until you have to get your hands dirty.

So many such projects end up abandoned, and you see ghosts of dreams in those concrete shells. It once held a promise of something beautiful. Once. Now, they are just akiyas.

After seven years of laying bricks, I fear I would end up that way. Some days that fear feels close. On rare days, I say “Never!”. Most days though, are just ordinary days where I feel exhausted from my 9-5, but lay one brick for the day. Not really sure it mattered, only hoping it did. At least I got a stable runway now, so I know I can keep laying bricks, even though I don’t have blueprint. I only know that one day I can live in it happily with my family.

Just gotta keep laying bricks.

Brick by brick.