Lost momentum
jasonleow • 18 Nov 2024 •
I fell sick last week, but had to hold it in because had to work, and to teach my last ever workshop. That’s drained me to point of burnout.
Took two days off Twitter and other socials, chat groups. Now I want to take days off forever.
Why do I keep doing it anyways?
All my streaks. All my self-imposed commitments.
Consistency is hardest when you’re ill and drained and lost momentum.
That’s the days when it’s easiest to break streaks.
Tbh I struggled to write even this piece. I usually get my daily writing done in the morning. But it’s 9pm now. I still don’t know what to write.
So I write about what’s causing me to not know what to write. Classic trick.
Aside, this is why I’m often scared of stopping and resting. Because everything I built comes crashing down the moment I do, and I don’t know if I’ll ever go back to it. All that time and energy invested… poof.
Gone. On a whim.
I still don’t feel back.
But… this too shall pass.
Maybe I’ll feel better tomorrow. As it always does.
Comments
Jason, it’s easy for me to say this, because I have never ever, in no area of my life, have had any impressive streaks like the ones people have in here, but here it goes: even if you lose the streak, when you say: all that time and energy invested… poof, well, not really. It’s not gone. Only if you only care about maintaining that streak or number, then it will be like poof, but the underlying results and habits, are deep rooted. Wish you a speedy recovery, friend.
Thanks guys. I’m finally back.
@haideralmosawi Yes indeed! Had to remind myself to not grovel and that I’ll feel better tomorrow really helped
@drodol Yes, you’re right. I think when sick and will is weak, the fear tends to overpower. Now I’m back, and it feels lame to have even thought that haha
Reminding yourself that it’s a state you fall into and out of is a great approach for these down times. Being ill feels very different to being healthy and hopefully your recovery is around the corner. Wish you a speedy one!