Push comes to shove

When does self-care turn into stagnation and laziness? Where does the line start?

This burnout never seems to end. And self-care never seems to stop. After a while, what was a stop gap measure became daily life. Daily life turns into lifestyle. And after a while, all I wanted was to do nothing, watch videos all day, and chill 24/7. Self-care turns into stagnation, into laziness.

Then, unexpected forces in the household this week pushed me back to having to wake up at 5am all over again, finding an extra 2h per day to work for 15h days. Having to push hard, all over again.

It’s as if the universe had enough of my pottering around and decided I needed a push shove.

Push comes to shove. Hard shove. Maybe it’s time, to use the difficulty.

After all, all that self-care was leading nowhere. Burnout was not getting better, anyway.

Might as well just get tf back to work.