Survive first, then thrive

A Monday morning question for you: When are you seized by the thrill of what you are trying to accomplish? – @JamesClear

I asked myself that Monday morning question today, and nothing came up.

I’m not excited about anything now, to be honest.
I simply can’t muster up any feeling about anything.

I realised, to even feel excited about anything, to thrive mentally, you need to get past survival. Early this year I got past survival stage for money, but now I’m in survival stage for time, energy and bandwidth.

In my head, I’m barely hanging on.

You could call this burnout. A highly functional, super specific sort of burnout.

It’s pretty weird.
I can get stuff done.
Do what is required.
Even go the extra mile a bit.

But when it comes to new stuff, stuff for adventure and excitement, I’m absolutely deflated. Therefore, my PHP procrastination. Therefore, not launching anything so far this year even though it’s already coming to end of March. Therefore, only managing to push out small, inconsequential, fun projects. Therefore, constantly tired, unable to wake up early.

I think, in this reflection, therein lies my solution.

I got to fully focus on freeing up more bandwidth, energy and time.

And resting, recovering.

Till then, any attempts at new adventures are simply futile.

Ok. I’ll do that. Will report back.