What got me here won't get me there

My levels of abundance for my family:

$8k → “We survived! *gasp” (survival waterline)
$10k → “We’re okay”
$15k → “We’re comfortable”
$20k → “We’re thriving”
>$20k → “We’re grinning”

We’re at “We’re okay”. Been so for slightly over a full year, but still grinding at level 2. It’s crazy 14h days, 70h weeks level of hard work just staying there at that level. For many people, perhaps that enough. But for our dreams and plans, it probably cuts too close. Which means, it’s not enough.

What got me here won’t get me there.

The whole past year I’ve been writing and thinking, thinking and writing, about breaking through level 2 to at least level 3, but no luck.

Can’t find any give in the schedule.
Can’t find no motivation in the spirit.
Can’t find a way to get unstuck and out.

I tried I truly did.

If nothing worked, I just need to try something different.
But what if different simply requires a capacity that I don’t have and might never have with this schedule, given how it’s played out for the past year?

What got me here won’t get me there.

What else can I do?
What do you do when there’s nothing you can do?

You pray.

That I think I can do. At the very least.

Keep praying, wishing, imagining, agonizing, thinking, writing, trying, aspiring, hoping, visualizing, crying, procrastinating, trying again anyway.

If all else fails, I think I can still do that.

Since there’s nothing else I—in my limited, human ways—can do anyway, it’s gonna take something a lot more powerful than me to break through.

That’s gonna need some serious prayer.

Because what got me here won’t get me there.