When was the last time you truly had fun?
jasonleow • 10 Oct 2022 •
I asked myself that question yesterday, and I couldn’t recall the last time I had fun.
If there’s one, it most likely would be during pre-COVID, pre-fatherhood times. Maybe it’s the last time I was in Bali, in December 2019. So it’s been at least 3 years.
3 looong years.
Through a global catastrophe, a local crisis, and a personal upheaval. Time is relative, they say. And truly, it felt like 30 years not 3.
“I can’t recall the taste of food, nor the sound of water, nor the touch of grass. I’m naked in the dark.” – Frodo
Like Frodo in the Lord Of The Rings, I can’t even remember how to have fun anymore, after those long dark years. My muscle memory on how to do it… all gone. Everything now is revolves around work or care, duty and responsibility. Even when it’s supposed to be a fun leisure activity, I’m ‘working’ in some capacity - as an entrepreneur, a dad, a husband, a son. Always having to look out for others, care for them.
I thought I was burned out from work, from hustling.
Instead I think I’m burned out. From everything. From life itself.
How do you take a vacation from life itself?
I wish I knew the answer, but nothing’s coming through… yet.
Or maybe I just need more sleep…
Comments
@tao Yeah exactly! I was just thinking: “Maybe I should consider that my definition of fun don’t have to stay fixed, and I can update it.” So perhaps this is just a symptom of the kind of painful transition periods where the old habits had yet to fade away and new habits are still unknown/unformed…
I can agree with this. I think that as you get older and your responsibilities increase, the definition of fun changes. Although, I see other people I know in similar life situations that are off to Vegas, going to festivals or going out with their friends all the time. I think that maybe I have just forgotten what fun is.