I wish
jasonleow • 8 Feb 2025 •
Why do I need to keep telling myself that “I accept”? Why a mantra even?
Because I’m trying to shout over this inner monologue.
Because this is me trying to negotiate with reality.
Because I’m not confronting what is before me.
Because I keep wishing otherwise, in loop.
Because this is the flip side of “I accept”:
I wish I had more sleep.
I wish I had more money.
I wish I started earlier as a coder.
I wish I had indie hacking in my 20s.
I wish I had more time to work on my products.
I wish I had more time for everything.
I wish I could work out more.
I wish I can retire my parents lavishly.
I wish I can retire my wife even if she doesn’t need it.
I wish I can always be there for my son.
I wish I can make everyone happy.
I wish I didn’t have to go through the pandemic.
I wish I didn’t need to take so long to get to $10k.
I wish I was more business savvy.
I wish I was a more shameless marketer.
I wish I can code like a 10x dev.
I wish I didn’t need to work 4 jobs.
I wish I can travel more.
I wish I am not so exhausted.
I wish I didn’t have to take care of everyone.
I wish I stopped having excuses.
I wish I stopped having even good reasons.
I wish I didn’t overthink so much.
I wish I was more foolish and rash.
I wish I didn’t care this much.
I wish I didn’t wish.
Now, I kill all of these “I wish”.
Now.
Slit them by the throat.
Stab in the jugular.
Suffocate them to sleep.
No more.
NO.
MORE.
I will take the choices the world made for me.
I will no longer feel sorry for myself.
I will do what needs to be done.
I will.
Fk wishing.
No more “I wish”.
Only “I will” remain.
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
― Frank Herbert, Dune
I must not wish. Wishing otherwise is the mind-killer. Wishing otherwise is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my wishes. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when they has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the wishes has gone there will be nothing. Only “I will” remain.
Comments
I would politely suggest to eliminate “I wish” and “I will.” Both imply that you currently lack. Act as if, and it shall be given unto you. The most effective affirmations start with “I AM.” #Yourwordisyourwand
@Winkletter Not quite getting it haha… why poop in the other?
@therealbrandonwilson Oh this post wasn’t an affirmation, it’s a reality check. The reality is I do not have it yet and there’s things holding me back. So I write it down as it is. But yes, to affirm and envision towards an ideal, we should use “I am”.
@jasonleow One is real, the other is not. I always took it to mean wishing will get you nowhere.
@Winkletter Ah, good one! I would have never figured it out lol
My grandma used to say, “Wish in one hand, 💩 in the other–see which fills up first.”